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Stifle Yourself!

by Zoë Kessler,

When I was growing up, there was a TV show called All in the Family. It was about a stereotypical all-American W.A.S.P. family in the early 70s.

The head of the family, Archie Bunker, was fond of telling his wife Edith to stifle herself, something no man would say to me — and live.

ADHD, ADD, behaviour, annoyingStill, as a child, my unbridled (and noisy) enthusiasm gave my mom headaches and disrupted the classroom; as an adult, it was unwelcome at work and embarrassing at social gatherings.

Undiagnosed and unmedicated, I had an inkling that, at times, my behaviour caused others discomfort.

Often it was a subterranean knowledge, not quite conscious enough for me to act upon. I’ve since learned that self-awareness is not a forté for many ADHDers. Not, at least, until we make a conscious effort to learn this skill.

Post-diagnosis, after learning the art of self-restraint, I’m now rethinking how much I’m willing to curb my natural enthusiasm in order to conform.

I’ve realized that making an effort to fit in is psychically and emotionally exhausting, and belies the wisdom of Shakespeare’s character Polonius: “This above all: to thine own self be true.”

In trying to be like everyone else, I waged an inner battle, and the biggest loser — was me. Sometimes, to win, you have to be braver than that.

There’s a scene in the movie The Full Monty that I love for its outrageous nonconformity. (No, not that scene, although that one’s good, too!) I’m thinking of the scene where the main characters are standing in line at a queue, and the Hot Chocolate song “You Sexy Thing (I Believe in Miracles)” comes over the PA.

Before you know it, the guys are dancing in line, and one of them breaks into a full twirl while walking toward the teller.

Brilliant!

The enjoyment is palpable and I can’t help but think that everyone in line was lifted up by that bold and outrageous act of public dancing.

self-expression, behaviour, ADD, ADHD

I’ve always skipped down the sidewalk if I felt like it

I’ve always skipped down the sidewalk if I felt like it.

The other day, the sun broke out in the afternoon, after a long, dark Canadian winter.

As I walked along the sidewalk downtown, I sang an old song by The Demics in my head.

By the time I got to the refrain, “I Wanna Go to New York City,” I was really getting into it.

It wasn’t until I was in the middle of the intersection at a green light that I caught myself playing air guitar. Right there. In public. At an intersection.

When I realized what I was doing, I stopped. I blushed. I laughed my ass off.

At the risk of appearing eccentric, I’m letting my happiness out, full-blown, full-grown.

I’m no longer jealous of little kids who are allowed to express their happiness with giggles and laughter.

I believe that we grown-ups would be a lot more healthy — emotionally, mentally and physically — if we let ourselves be more childlike as well.

So one of my pet peeves is that I live in a society where it’s unseemly for a middle-age woman to skip down the sidewalk, where adults often don’t feel free to express spontaneous happiness, joy and — most radically, pure love of life — in whatever way their spirit moves them.

Where audiences, no matter how sublime the performance, restrain their appreciation and God forbid, no one dares to move or dance in their seat to a rousing piece of music.

I’m especially peeved that those of us who do reclaim our natural freedom of expression, throwing off artificial restraints, are seen as mentally unhealthy. Wing-nuts. Eccentrics (and what’s wrong with that?).

I would suggest it’s quite the opposite. That, rather, we are reclaiming our birth-right to child-like spontaneity, freedom of expression, and genuine, authentic joy. And what could be more healthy than that?

Zoe Kessler ADHD Author

Zoe Kessler

Zoë Kessler is a best-selling author, journalist, and speaker who specializes in adult Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD / ADD).

Kessler’s most recent book, ADHD According to Zoë: The Real Deal on Relationships, Finding Your Focus, and Finding Your Keys has been described as a must-read, spellbinding portrayal of a woman with ADHD. Kessler herself has been described as “Pippi Longstocking all grown up!”

A Huffington Post blogger and top blogger at Psych Central.com, Kessler‘s blog, ADHD from A to Zoë has garnered a loyal readership from around the globe.

Kessler is also a frequent contributor to ADDitude Magazine. She’s created CBC radio documentary and standup comedy about being a woman living with ADHD and has appeared on Global TV, City TV, and CTV.

Kessler has been quoted in Scientific American Mind Magazine, in the book Fast Minds, and has appeared in a documentary film about women and ADHD. She’s open to more interviews, but first you have to catch her.

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12 Comments

  1. mcfarlane September 12, 2015 at 7:12 pm

    Your right Zoe most of us have to restraint ourselves except for hockey players. When they score a goal they can jump up, scream, hug and kiss. Where would Don Cherry be if he always restrained himself? Mr. Cherry might be in a very different corner.
    All students our future.
    Wayne ( Should I dance at church tomorrow?) McFarlane

  2. wolfshades September 13, 2015 at 12:36 am

    What a great blog! I never had the “hyper” part of ADHD – just the inattentive part. Yet I’ve always enjoy dancing in the privacy of my home, and wish I felt free enough to let loose whenever the mood hit (and it hits often). You’ve given me something to think about. :)

  3. wildweeder September 13, 2015 at 5:39 am

    LOVE your article. Like wolfshades, I also tend more toward inattentive, except I do sing out loud when I hear songs I know. What I see now when talking/listening to children is this; they love being heard, and really appreciate an adult willing to be silly & spontaneous or sing a song with them. It’s taken me many years of feeling I’m not doing a “good job” of fitting in before recently deciding to just be me, and if I notice someone feeling uncomfortable with my spontaneity, I just say “sorry, no offense intended – I just really like to [whatever it is].

  4. wildweeder September 13, 2015 at 5:47 am

    One more note: I do childcare Wednesday evenings, so I cannot attend your webinar (much as I would love to do so). Will I be able to get on totallyadd later and view what I miss on Wednesday?

  5. mischafellez September 17, 2015 at 11:46 pm

    Thank you for your much needed voice:) I’m funding the donation of a Therapeutic Adult Coloring Book for PTSD, and Adult ADHD Patients to a local mental health organization. Art has always been a refuge from my own PTSD and I want to share that respite with the world. I’ve been an illustrator for twenty years and I’ve seen coloring help trauma survivors, adult ADHD patients, and even people needing to work on their coordination skills. I’d be honored if you’d post the link below on your wonderful site:) I’m offering several coloring templates, and color art prints of my original paintings, as well as full copies of the coloring book as rewards for the donors of this campaign! Thank you so much for considering it and I will joyfully be following your blog! Indiegogo link: http://www.indiegogo.com/project/preview/e0719bc

  6. Evelyn September 30, 2015 at 4:26 pm

    Well that’s a good post.
    I never liked “All In the Family”, but I absolutely loved “Full Monty” I that it was absolute genus, I think it was taken from a true story which made it all the more genus.
    …and yes, FUN!
    Evelyn

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