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>>> Anyway, when people know what ADHD is, they seem better able to recognize it. But then I find, the more I get it handled, the less obvious it is. Even to me. Of course, that can change faster than the weather> <<<
I can relate, it’s a bummer being moody on top of the hypo-mania motor-mouth clown act. Sometimes I magically can be patient, quiet and have good manners, even sit still!. Then, it’s withdrawn, lone wolf mode. I have a fun “therapist” mode my daughter likes to make fun of. She’s a real ham, I wonder where she get’s that?
I want to help people become more aware about ADHD, and especially the fact that there are no “typical” ADHD cases. I can let it go when people dismiss the whole idea. It’s sometimes too complicated for me to explain anyway, depending on my mood of course. Especially to a person who’s already made up their mind. I find it difficult to “let it go” and let people be wrong. It’s better to be happy than right, but I don’t stay happy.
Most of all, the fact that I’m barely a toddler in the process of recovering/accepting my diagnosis, helps me accept peoples ignorance. I have strong tendencies to be precocious though. Boing Boing Boing… (me n the walls) and another stampede of yeah butts run through my brain.
I don’t know if you’re moody like I am Rick, and all you gals/guys. I’m not sure if the way my symptoms change from day to day is part of the ADHD, or possibly bi-polar, or some other moodiness, or multi-personality problem. A friend (co-worker actually) used to joke around with me and say “when I show up for work, I always wonder which of the many faces of Robbo I’ll be working with today”, he seemed to like me anyway, I never forgot that friendly diagnosis. I couldn’t deny any of his observation. I wonder how many related disorders we develop over the years just from having undiagnosed, or misdiagnosed ADHD? It’s so dang scary and risky seeing a psychiatrist, they’re all so darn human. There are so many different problems people can have. I want to be like I was when I was 5, just grab a blanket, maybe find a pillow, go hide n snooze, my oldest escape mechanism. I don’t like it when people can read me and expose my struggle, or pain so simply, so easily. A young pastor at a church I used to go to looked at me one day and somehow could see that I was beyond miserable, he used the word “tormented” It was awful being so transparent. It catches me by surprise because it’s such a rare event. It rocks my world when that happens. How dare anyone judge me and be right!
What haunts me that I don’t have much hope of getting rid of is my desire for the novelty of new hobbies, experiences, discovery, and new, more interesting ways to have fun. Extreme sports!. I recently met a drop dead beautiful woman and the chemistry is so powerful it feels truly dangerous. She just grins at me, and I can tell she’s just as interested in me… I wonder if it’s all just my imagination. Of course I’m gonna keep flirting with her and talking to her. But it’s dumb to bring the mess of me into a romantic relationship. I don’t know what I’m thinking… Oh that’s right, I wasn’t, I was just lost in her beautiful eyes.
I want life to be an action adventure movie with hair raising car chases, massive crash n burn scenes we miraculously survive, and endless sequels. She can be my co-star.
I’ve got this ADHD problem all figured out now, LOL, I need a more difficult problem to solve.. Funny one huh? I’m glad that’s justa buncha bulowny pilgrim! Oh I know! I’ll get into a relationship! yeah! my life isn’t complicated enough huh?
Life is a massive riddle. Maybe if I found all the answers I want, I would just die of boredom. Just drop dead from lack of stimulation.
Out of gas. This only took about 3 hours to write, edit, finish.
I’ve barfed my mind all over this web site again, huh?
AAACK, UURP! SSSpllash
burp…
ugh.
Sat night 9:30 2/18/12
PS I just got a fun idea! print this out and give it to my new lady friend, should I? hmmm. help! helpme helpme
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