Re: ADD and holds grudges

[Anonymous]

I love some of the analogies given for the severity of their grudge holding capabilities. Mine is that I hold a grudge like a terorist. I’d said it for years and years but thats not the point.

One thing not mentioned which maybe a large contributing factor is that individuals who were recently diagnosed as adults or have just become aware of ADD/ADHD in themselves may percieve things a little different then someone who has been aware of their ADD/ADHD from childhood. Another thought to put into the thinking machine is that if you were just recently diagnosed, have you recieved any kind of treatment yet? Or perhaps if you have knowingly lived with ADD/ADHD all your life and have recieved treatment or still continue to recieve treatment you may feel different as well.

Maybe its because i’m so new here and dont want to appear a certain way, but I was thinking in my case that i’ve only known for a month and a half maybe two whole months now, and have only been getting treatment for it since Jan 15th. So I think that a before and after gives a much better painted picture of the true nature of how things are with us.

Before treatment, I was able to hold a grudge like a terorist and would even warn people using that exact phrase. I would say it jokingly but meant it down to my rotten core. I’d over think past situations and would get all worked up. The fact that its all in the past means that I couldnt do anything about it. Thinking and re-thinking the different possiblities, and outcomes with now way to resolve them made it worse.

After diagnosis, and starting treatment, my grudge holding abilities are bad that I dont think I could be upset with someone for more than a couple of days. Nothing really bad has happend to me since I started treatment but I still have a long road ahead (sorry for the half empty glass there, its almost time for my Adderall). The grudges I held against people in the past are not so much a factor in my life, for once in my life the ADHD driven part of why I would do what i’d do is no longer dictating how I live.

I dont know if that makes sense or not.

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