Re: ADD / Depersonalization

[Anonymous]

Goh, dat is handig maar ik ga toch maar in het engels verder zodat iedereen die wil mee kan lezen!

Dankjewel voor je uitvoerige reacties!

I don’t have kids. Even though I love them! I always think I would never manage having kids. It’s hard enough to live my own life. Don’t think I would be able to provide them any structure (rust, reinheid, regelmaat)!

I too need to do only one thing to be able to get things done. Right now I’m procrastinating on a small task that really needs to be done today. It will only take an hour. The procrastinating already cost me half the day. I’m doing a lot of things just not that one thing that needs to be doe. I’m afraid of the stress the work will give me but now I’m stressed by procrastinating… (and find myself moving towards fase 3).

I realise now that I call ‘fase one’ my ‘normal state’. It isn’t. It’s actually quite rare.

It feels like fase 1 should be my ‘normal self’. I felt like that for the first time when I started taking Ritalin a year ago. I felt ‘normal’ then. Connected, the world looked threedimensional.

Usually I’m in fase 2/3. Now I’m leaning towards 3. Yesterday I loved my life enjoying ‘fase 1’!

I’m not ready to accept that face 2/3 is ‘my normal self’…

But mostly, I really, really want to prevent ending up in fase 4 again.

A five year old son! That’s quite a nice age. I find that kids can really help me stay (or get) connected. The way they focus on small things. A bug, a song, a book… Real life. They (still) know how to live!

And now I will be gone for at least an hour. I promise myself I will finish that damn quotation in an hour –> shut down the internet, put on some music, set the timer, and GO!

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