Hi quizzical,
I still really get a kick out of your avatar every time I see it. It shows that same sense of humor. I remember a post from you about how you can get into a very entertaining clown mode when it’s just you and your kids, and then you’re more serious and mature when your husband comes home. I’ll bet that’s totally normal, okay, and super lucky for your family. It’s a mystery why we question ourselves so much. I’m on vacation from that again…
I really tried to post a response last week but just couldn’t make it make sense. I was too pre-occupied being way too hard on myself. We love our kids and want nothing on the planet more than giving them a good life, and hopefully protecting them from the pain we’ve had to deal with.
My daughter has picked up on a lot of my sense of humor too. It’s bliss seeing the confidence in her eyes when I was telling her boyfriend about how funny her dry sense of humor was even when she was really little, great funny stories that made her beam with self esteem and confidence. Thanks a billion million for reminding me of that part of this last weekend.
It bothers me a lot when people say “don’t be so hard on yourself” so it’s hard to say that to you. It’s good advice for us though. It hurts to hear it because it’s so painfully true, it’s the broken wreckord of my life… (weird spelling on purpose, cuz it wrecks my insides) It could be my worst demon, and when a person actually agrees with and even encourages my “inner bully” the pain is impossible to describe. Especially when it’s about the most important goal in our life. Please don’t let that mean ladies gibberish repeat inside your head. You do not deserve that horrible kind of abuse.
To be the best possible parent we can be. That is a goal that deserves honor, dignity, and even gratitude. Not all parents have these same instincts. I’ll bet if you and your husband sat down together, you could come up with a list of qualities you have, and have had for a long time but your inner bully seems to always interrupt when you start to see them.
I hope you realize how much so many folks in this camp really care about you. We’re all rootin for ya, you’ve got backup!.
I hope to see those interesting throughts regarding humor when you’re ready to share it with us. You’re an important part of this community. You help tons of people!, we’re just so darn impulsive and running late that we forget to just say thanks. So thanks again. A lot. Tons.
A bunch! 
6-20-12
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