Re: Can I get help/diagnosed without my parents?

[Anonymous]

Thanks you guys! I have been trying to implement new strategies and often times people find it hard to believe I have these problems because I *seem* rather efficient (lists, being organized, getting okay grades, becoming hyperfocused on certain tasks). I even got an OCD help book, anxiety tapes(I really only think any remnants of anxiety I have are from ADD haha), and another psychology book!

My friend who has ADD used to be the girl failing and falling through the cracks, but now that she has been medicated she is always the one I ask for help with assignments now. I feel like it would help me too because we literally are the exact same personality and do the exact same things, have the same problems, etc. I have zero patience for things I have to do, or even want to do, like art. I can’t even get myself to start a project. I’m pretty much just living my life being super unproductive, at least it’s almost Summer!

Which reminds me, that was why I was on such a tangent to get help then possibly find a medication that works well for me in the first place! You see next year I’m going to try going to a regular high school again because I need more structure than in just plain classes/independent study. I can’t do things by myself ha. So that’s why I really really really wanted to figure all of this out before then!

And I’m trying to think about everyone’s suggestions at the same time… Hmm, I don’t really see a pattern because my days are usually the same. I usually just come home and say I should start my homework now (study now, talk a walk now, draw now), then suddenly I’ll be taking my dog outside then I’ll decide to climb a tree, or pick flowers, or watch a movie, or text someone, or bake something. I never really make sense. It’s affected my personal life A LOT. Once I was at the mall with about 10 other kids I knew and I was trying to pay attention to what people were talking about and I had NO CLUE. NONE. It was seriously so embarrassing and the one guy sitting across from me was looking at me like he felt sorry for me or something… It was just, sad. One of my friends told me I was the most random girl she knew, but it was supposed to be a compliment. I would much rather be the friend people could talk to about anything, or the one that will always be there but that’s just not me I guess. My parents will even tell me stuff all the time and I’ll be trying SO HARD to pay attention but I end up going, “I’m sorry, I have absolutely no clue what you just said, sorry” and it’s not that they’re telling me to do chores or anything, a lot of times it will just be in normal conversations…

thanks for the suggestions everybody but I still kind of feel like I’ve done them or am doing them

welp.welpity.welp.

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