Wow thanks everybody! Let me try to answer all of your questions (if I can remember them, haha).
Okay well I do take an omega 3 supplement (a fish oil capsule…?) I also get omega 3’s through flax seed, soy butter, almond butter, coconut milk, etc. I’ve all ready tried pretty hard to help myself through diet. I eat lots of peppers, potatoes, cucumbers, edamame, snap peas, apples, berries, etc. I don’t eat very much sugar unless derived from natural sources like fruit and honey.
I can’t necessarily talk to a school counselor until next school year when I stop going to my charter school because I’m in a very small building and we don’t even have a school nurse. It’s pretty unfortunate for me…
I have tried begging and pleading, having an adult conversation, crying, and complaining and also LOTS of logical information/facts. Sometimes even a mixture of these… Anyways, my Mom always just gets irritated and says she “doesn’t want to have this conversation right now”. Our latest conversation of today went like this from what I remember… I will try not to be biased at all:
“Hey mom, I read more stuff about ADD last night and I feel like I should at least get a diagnosis”
“Well, fine, sure, I never said you couldn’t get a diagnosis…”
“Yeah I think it would be really good for me, but actually you did say you didn’t want me to get one one time…”
“What? When was that?! I never said that!”
“Yeah you did, you said you didn’t want me to try to get a job when I’m older and have them see that on my health records.”
“I never said that, I don’t even care about that as much anyways.”
“But that’s what you said in the car that one time…”
“You know what? You don’t need a diagnosis, you all ready took all of those tests online you were talking about, you already know you have ADD… Besides, didn’t your friend say it was at least 1,000 dollars to get all those tests? All they are going to do is put you on meds!”
“Well on the website I was on it taught that you should start doing planning and thinking about how you want your life to be and then the meds help you by—“
“I REALLY don’t want you on meds! You know, your brother was on the ADD meds and he saw hallucinations and I truly believe that’s what it was caused by! I don’t know ANYONE who has been helped by those ADD meds and they mess up your brain!”
“I know lots of people who have been helped by ADD meds, and there’s lots of different kinds. Just because it didn’t help the people you know doesn’t mean it wont help me or someone else. I really really want help.”
“But you and your brother have the same genetic makeup so it would do the same to you.”
***Side note: he is my half brother and he is 20 years older, so 35. He is my father’s son, not mother’s. My dad does not have ADD, my mom does so I don’t see how this is logical reasoning…
“Sure but I still want to get tested and the people I know who it has helped are my OWN age, not waaaay younger and waaaay older….. Mom?”
“Yes?”
“Didn’t you say your diet pills help you with ADD symptoms?”
“Yes…”
“And aren’t they a stimulant…?”
“Yes… BUT I DON’T take them EVERYDAY!”
“But they’re the SAME type of drug!!!!”
“Well………… Yes, but like I said I don’t take them everyday. I don’t want to talk about this right now, I still don’t feel good.”
“Aren’t they prescription though?!?”
“…………Yes…….. but……… they’re different. Your brother saw hallucinations from the ADD MEDS!!! I DON’T want to talk about this right now!”
“You always say that….”
“No I don’t! I don’t feel good right now, you’ve told me ALL of this before.”
“No I haven’t… Some of it was new from this website…”
“I don’t feel good. I want to stop talking about this right now.”
Me: *defeated face* 
5 minutes later…
Me: “Mom, Brooke (my friend with ADD and takes dexedrine) was right the helpful effects from caffeine wear off if you don’t take more and more. I get headaches if I don’t and I’m not getting any effects.”
Mom: *ignores me*
The End.
So yeah I’ve tried and tried and I don’t even know if I can get ahold of my family doctor to help me. Oh and the question about which is prominent (OCD or ADD) I believe the OCD is from not being able to control my thoughts and actions very well stemmed from Attention Deficit and some Hyper Activity so I try to close or open doors, windows, blinds, curtains. And I count and check and organize EVERYTHING. It’s soooo annoying because if I don’t do it my mind goes even MORE crazy!!! I really want to focus on important things! Not stinking closing the doors and counting them
Thanks for the tips guys, I do try to meditate and pray or do yoga or whatever (all of that) but I still feel mental so I don’t know. At least I’m not alone!!!
Question: If I call my family doctor, what would I say…? I don’t necessarily want my parents to know that I called him without their knowledge I’m not sure what they would think of it. Would I just say: I have really bad ADHD and my parents wont even take me to see you…?
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