Re: Diagnosed at 45 and not sure if meds are working.

[Anonymous]

Well, I went back to the Dr. and he doubled my dose based on all my symptoms and status. I was a little nervous about that, but he knows me very well and he has good experience with ADHD. Well, it helped some… some my anxiety is down some but the thoughts are still irritating. I focus then lose it. But since the diagnosis, I recognize it even more. Yes, more stress has come up with life and work, but I think I could handle it better if I could focus better. I did get a laugh at the doctors. I asked, “How will I know if I am at the right dose?” He said, “You will feel normal.” I said, “Really? Really….” He got that.. Duh, if my brain has not functioned right all along, then how in the world will I know what “Normal” is. We both laughed.

But since being on the increased dose, I am getting nervous. I don’t think the 40mg dose is right. I am scared that I will need the max of 60mg. I know I am jumping the gun… Not that I am impatient or anything:)- I truly hope that next month, he will have a better clue on if Adderall XR is working but a bigger dose is needed or if a different med will help. I already dropped 9.5lbs over the past month and at this point I really can’t afford to drop anymore.

I refuse to try Adderall IR and luckily it is not available, at least around here due to supply. I have a brief history with drinking which rapidly turned to dependance and well.. do not want any med that gives me any euphoria. Just want to be able to think and focus.

My doctor says.. “Breathe, we will get through this, just take one day at a time.” So, I am trying to relax and be patient with myself, but it is really hard.

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