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For me, I think it got hard wired as a small child – did something go wrong? Munchkin must’ve done or not done it… I’m always hypervigilant, ready to do damage control for whatever it is that I’m about to realize I’ve screwed up- side effect: self esteem crushing feeling of constantly falling short of expectations. I’m hoping now that I have this actual diagnosis of ADD and new found meds, I’ll be able to set more realistic expectations with people, and be more conscious of my strengths and weaknesses. Hopefully then I won’t be having so many of these horrible “oh $#!*” moments all the time that keep this whole cycle going. One thing I try to do is stop feeling bad all the time – especially when I haven’t done anything wrong. I have to consciously take time to look at what I’ve done right today – at the end of the day, think about what went right and feel good about that. If I don’t do that, I will slip back into “I’m a bad person” thing really quickly…
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