Nellie, I like and agree with what you have posted. 
Billd, You sound like you are being awfully tough on yourself. It is imossible for a human to be perfect. The more you try, the more frustrated, anxious and depressed you will become. I am 44 years old. It has taken me this long to realize that I also suffer from poor relationships. However, I have recently taken up glass carving old bottles I collect from local bars. I give them as personalized gifts to people who I like and wish to improve relations with. It is a great feeling to see them happy with something you made with your hands. It opens up new lines of conversation and forces me to stop thinking about myself. Restoring and maintaining your AMC is really cool but very lonely. It is a great excuse to remain isolated.
If you truly want to make and keep friends you must do something differently. That whole insanity definition fits here…..
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