Re: Holidays… I hate holidays. Does anyone out there like them?

[Anonymous]

I think all of us have things we like about the holiday season and things we don’t like. I hate feeling like I need to spend a pile of money to make my children happy, when I’m strapped and just getting by paying my bills. I enjoy their happy faces when they get gifts, I just hate the price tag. I hate driving in black friday traffic (lady almost hit me the other day) even when I’m not going shopping. I do not have social issues other than the normal ADD things of losing patience waiting for others to finish talking and when it is finally my turn to speak forgetting what I was going to say. I’m an extrovert though and that probably has more to do with my lack of social anxiety, than ADD or anything else. I miss my extended family at this time of year worse than any other and that kind of makes it more stressful. Plus the crappy weather makes for a little more struggle just to get up and get out of bed every day, especially when I have to drive in it so I know I should be leaving earlier than normal.

But I do love the lights and decorations. I love the spirit of giving that people have at this time of year. I do love the smiles I see at the airport when families the live a fair distance from each other are reunited. I love how pretty the world is when it’s covered with a soft layer of new fallen snow.

I was thinking recently about my memories of my father who btw is still alive and realized that he is the one I inherited ADD from. He’s got all the classic symptoms with some twists of course. Untreated ADD explains so many issues in our lack of relationship. It’s sad really, but I’m pretty sure his health issues will prevent him taking stimulants. The holidays remind me of that fractured relationship when guilt is piled on by other family members for not going out of my way again to make a relationship where one doesn’t exist.

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