Hang in there Quiscale. I hope today is better. I find myself obsessing over being a perfect parent! I think I controlled a lot of my ADHD when I knew I had to “be” that perfect role model. I joined the PTA, room parents…every activity at the schools I was there and said yes to everything! Not knowing I expected my kids to have all A’s….because they were bright and “not” the student I was. They are gate students! And I would exceed very well in some of my classes and completely bomb in other ones. I’m noticing a few things in my daughter that show the signs of ADD….but still processing and trying to be sure before moving forward. Finding out about family members having it..including my Mom. Questioning am I doing the right thing…I was the wife and Mom who had it together or so I thought. Haha Then I began to say no here and there. Told myself I have to slow down…Well I stopped doing some things..but then find myself just doing just as much but in other areas of my children’s lives. When this happened….my ADHD went into a frenzy! Don’t think to much is my
advice….As hard as it is you must replace all of those negative things with positive. Just try and replace it immediately. Trying to “control” our thoughts is the hardest thing for each of us…I know. Believe me! Take it one day at a time..then one week and so on. I am in the beginning process of changing my habits…Still seeking the right mentor. Dealing with something I’ve never heard of until recently. I am just happy I found a support page. Whether to vent…to be happy..or call it a day! Haha I’m completely off subject with this post…but it does feel good to not be alone. 
Love ya!