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I’m 37 and have not been officially diagnosed, however my father has been, and I can identify my childhood behaviors of “day dreaming” , procrastination, and difficulty sustaining focus, and know that these tendencies have definitely carried themselves into my adult life. While I have been able to learn how to filter out distractions in order to focus on important tasks (ie, workplace tasks, driving, reading etc…) The one area where I know my quality of life would be improved is in my inability to manage time to peruse my other life passions.

I am a creative person (as are most Leo’s I know), and throughout my school years teachers and adults encouraged me to pursue my creative endeavors believing I had potential as a writer. Although I would get inspiration from this encouragement, all my attempts outside of this structured environment would end up uncompleted. In hindsight I think I did well not to get bogged down in depression. despite my frustrations I’ve always remained an optimist. but it did result in me giving up on my creative pursuits to focus on a more “conventional career”.

Well, after many fruitless years of pursuing this elusive “career” I realized I am just not that conventional. I spent the last few years (at least 5 of them) building myself a life that works for me without feeling that I have failed in attaining the “conventional” life everyone else is striving for. I have recently managed to find a job which I do enjoy and fulfills me. It is not 9-5 which also lends itself perfectly to my having time for my passion. I have recently had several offers to collaborate on projects with others but I still struggle on a daily basis to find the confidence, discipline and time management skills to follow through. Are there any other members who are in a creative field who struggled or are struggling with this too?