Re: Not soo new anymore…not so exciting…

[Robbo]

Thanks quiscale,

your post put a bow on this whole thread for me. I’ve been sorta living one foot out the door with this community. But you’ve helped me stop n think some more.

A time limit and a limit on how much I allow myself to invest emotionally on the effort I put into being part of this community are important keys to my over all “place in the world” search that helped me to find this place.

I just have to accept that I’m absolutely unique. And that is no crime. There is a place in this world for me.

My place in this world is not actually a place. It’s self acceptance, and growth.

And some kind of balance between the two that I may never get to find. Acceptance of a certain level of loneliness is key.

I do

I accept my alone ness.

It’s mine.

Sunday afternoon I spent a few hours really talking, listening, and trying to connect to absolutely crazy homeless people. Just two dudes I’ve been trying to help in my own way the last month or so. God only knows how much success there is.

The result? I felt better about my place in the world. I cared much less about what ANY person thought about me. I felt closer to the God that created me. I felt less needy.

I was okay with not feeling okay.

content.

Life is incredibly simple.

we just

breath in

breath out

repeat.

eat

sleep

Drag my raggity but outa bed

and

do it again.

never give up.

Oh yeah, one last thing.

stop by totallyadd.com once on a while to read and write.

And remember to pee so my kidneys don’t explode!!!

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