Re: Pshychoanalysis anyone?

[Anonymous]

Well it was quite a few years ago KrazyKat, but I remember it as at least quite a few months of tough going, but that was me. It was not a constant darkness though, it is more tumultuous, unsettling, than dark…it’s kinda hard to describe. There are so many variables. I would go from enlightened elation, to turmoil, anger, and at times despair…sometimes all in one day, one session maybe. What a wonderful ride.

If I recall appropriately….as issues or challenges would arise or be uncovered, the resulting turmoil was maybe dependent on my resistance, my struggle, and how strong a hold I had on the issue, or my flawed belief related to it, and or, how resistive I was to awakening, and truly embracing the changes I needed to make. I had issues around my relationship as well, which I already had considerable angst about, so my work as layered, crazy, but……it was fun too. I know that sounds rather MAD, but I did love every minute of it!!

So, Kat, no, it was not all dark, not by any means. As I said, the giddy enlightenment and discovery was exhilarating to say the least, it was heady times for sure. Laugh, wonderment, crying, silence……..I ran the gamut. I was ready and charged for this work, or adventure, I needed it to happen.

I recognize it can be very exhausting too, but it is an exhaustion that has an underlying strength and positive aspect or flow to it, I could feel the positive displacement. I know I’m fumbling this terribly and I’m sorry for that…….it is just so hard to explain!!!

Anyway, I would encourage anybody entering into this challenge to find and engage a support group (4 to 6 people is a good size), it really helped me though a lot of my therapy. I found the counseling sessions left me wanting more, I was ready for more by the time the next day rolled around….. to feel more, to speak more, to listen more……more more more. A support group facilitated that need to share, listen and grow, I was voracious.

Remember KK…fear is just fear, nothing more.

Toofat

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