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I was thinking about starting a new topic somewhere about my recent ritalin experience, but Ill start here to see if I can get some feedback.
In the past I have been on adderall, but I always had a hard time adjusting to the feeling. Everthing would slow down so much, that I just didnt feel like myself. So, years later of not being on meds, I decided to try again because being a full time stay at home mom who is responsible for the care and feeding of a very rambunctious 3 year old boy, and the orginazation of the houshold, the meals and the finanances (!) has me feeling stressed and overwhelmed daily. We live on an island and I dont have a regular doctor here because they are not taking new patients–anyhoo, I got into see a doctor here on a temporary basis, and she prescribed my 10 mil. of ritalan, because I wanted to try an alternative to the adderall. Well, I took the 10 mil, almost against my better judgement–I had been on 5 of adderall–and I spent the next 6 hours feeling like I just horfed a line of blow at a party, which might have been o.k if I had actually been at a party, and not home with my family in the middle of the day! Not that I do that kind of partying anymore, and dont every one here tell me that they dont know what Im talking about! But I digress, as usual. The feeling was so intense but very paradoxical. On one hand I felt very calm and slowed down. My husband and I had a two hour conversation, and I was able to listen, and I really noticed that I was so much less reactionary--we were having one of of THOSE talks, if you know what I mean. Im sure most can relate, but I go to the emotional red zone really easily, and this makes dealing with my son difficult as well, because he has mommas number, and Ive had to work very hard med free on controlling my anger. On the other hand, it was way, way to intense, and I didnt like the intense peak and valley of the drug. It felt like a real roller coaster ride. I dont remember adderal being quite so intense. Wondering if I should just try taking 5 and seeing how that feels, but I feel a little trepidatious after yesterdays wild journey. I want to feel better, I dont want to be so impatient and frustrated and irritated at everything all day long, but I dont want to feel like I just took a recreational drug in the middle of the day! In case anybody is wondering why I dont go back to the adderall, I felt like it took away my spark, you know, the life of the party stand-up comedian spark. Anyone out there with any ideas, Id love to hear`em.