Re: Still Skeptical

[Anonymous]

Carrie,

Maybe I am asking a silly question… Have you seen ADD and Loving It?! If so, it is a good thing to share with people around you who just don’t seem to “get it!” You can get ADD and Loving It?! as well as a fantastic organization guide put out by Rick Green from this website I don’t know where you live but I can tell you both DVDs are priceless and a must have because the can be used to help you create the reality you want. (not that you can always share that reality) but you can at least create a frame of refrence that you can live with. The organization DVD is particularlly useful because Rick who has ADHD goes “step by step”on how you can get your enviroment in order and I can tell you once you get into it, it is addictive enough that you want to keep it up, It can be done and you can do it with the right tools in hand.

I hope I am not being too forward ,but,… where do you live? You mention something about a small town and that it was difficult to get help there. I know how difficult living in an enviroment that is not supportive can be; I pray that what ever you encounter, it is not putting undue stress on your marriage. Our temperment can be “mercurical” constantly shifting with “ebbs and tides” this can be very hard on a relationship.

I am originally from Hawaii I left home because no one seened to understand, moving to Florida I once again learned no one “understood me” In my “quest” to be understood I’ve been through three marriages and countless heartaches. The people I have hurt over the years makes me wonder why a hurricane was not named after me, in the wake of the devestation I have caused over the years. Here I am, five thousand miles away from home with my closest relative three thousand miles away and only now one person in my family has started to understand me and I love her dearly for it.

Forgiving myself was hard, very hard, it took me through periods of homelessness including a short stint out on the streets of St. Petersburg; a diagnosis of bi-polar disorder, years of “rollercoastering” on medications where after a year they woould become ineffective, I even went into a period where I had severe panic attacks, I was so overly medicated that I was a “zombie” yet the bouts of extreme terror from the attacks continued on.

Things at one point was so bad that, I had a dream that a car was coming straight for me and I was about to be hit, that is, until I was startled back into reality by a car horn blaring in my ears!

The fact however is I survived my “karmic retributions” i.e. payback for all the bad things I caused, and yes, I am wiser and happier for it although I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

What I learned from my odyssey was little pearls of wisdom; from the Catholic church I learned “it is better to understand than to be understood” From Christianity I learned “Seek and you shall find.” this is iinevidable although you may not know when it will happen; from a book called “Illusions” by Richard Bach I learned that “We all create our own reality.” If something exist in our lives it is because we put it there.” “Perspective use it or lose it!” was one of the admonishments I learned from the book; from Zen Buddhism I learned. “If you see a flag flying it is not the flag nor the wind that moves but rather your mind that moves”; finally from another form of Buddhist I once practiced I learned that “Only in the murky swamp can you see and smell the beautiful lotus flower.”

You see one common thread in all the insights I have learned over the years and it can be summed up by saying; “The art of living is a matter of how we view the world around us;our atttitude about our experiences is key to happiness. In the worst of circumstances it is still possible to be happy.”

Carrie your happiness may not always be easy to achive however regardless of your circumstances you can achive it as fleeting as it is sometimes. A hardship, is a hardship, is a hardship but your willingness to extract a life lesson that can forward a better life for you is the one way you can always come out “smelling like a rose”

I’m glad I met you on this website Carrie…

K

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