Re: Successful ADDers annoy the h*ll out of me.

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…. I feel often like a person with a great idea, a lot to say, but I’ve been gagged and locked into a sound-proof room.

That’s my day. Would that frustrate most folks? It does me.

Then someone comes along and says “it’s so easy just do this or that”.

Uh, I’m not stupid – if it was that easy, in 54 years perhaps I might have figured that out if it was that simple? Like Barkley says – it’s not what you know – it’s applying what you know. Well mine is so severe, I can’t apply most of what I know. I’ve got all this great knowledge and understanding trapped inside of me, I KNOW what I need to do to succeed, I’ve done it in short bursts, but it’s so exhaustive and so complex and so hard, it’s like being gagged in a soundproof room, and I’m trying to scream and get attention. I’m worn out just living.

Look at the 95+% NON-ADD people, and how DIVERSE they are, different IQs, different abilities as far as “common sense”, different skills (doctors, neur-surgeons vs. lawyers, inventors, actors) does that not exist WITH or IN people with ADHD, too?

What I guess I’m saying is that it’s wonderful some have either found a key, or found a great boss, a great wife, or live in parts of the world where things are a bit different (gee, here one town can be night and day different from another only 20 miles away!) So it’s not just ADHD, it’s social circumstances, employment opportunities that exist in Oregon but not Iowa (just for example), southern US folks are much more relaxed and slower pace than northern US people, and so on. So where you live, who your parents were/are, the school you attended (where my sons ended up the budget was tight, so they were BORED BORED, foreign language classes were cancelled – couldn’t afford teachers and so on)

WOW, so many combinations and possibilities – almost as many as there are people, maybe more!

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To use another analogy, if someone sets up the file folders for me, pre-labeled, then I can figure out where everything goes, but if I don’t know what I’m looking at, it could takes weeks of piling up seemingly unrelated documents before I could begin to know how to separate them into categories, and even then I’d wrestle with whether the categories were correct. Oh wait, that’s not an analogy – that’s my desk.<<

Hey, I resemble that remark! LOL

I’m a whiz with computers- yeah, I can troubleshoot rings around almost anyone, I can design systems, I see the big picture, but the boss thinks because of my super-abilities in some of those areas, such as security, antivirus, data protection, etc. that I then should be able to move right into major networks – routers, switches, etc. – NOPE – those things totally confuse the hell outta me. I’ve tried, and I “just don’t get it”. I’ve take classes and read book trying to learn simple programming. Nope, lost in chapter 1. (he’s a programmer, so can’t understand why others can’t do it – it’s so easy, after-all)

To all who succeed or consider themselves successful – good. I’m truly happy, I think it’s cool, and I DO try to pay attention and see what you’ve done, see if I can’t learn some of the things you do – see if I can’t apply them. Some folks here have some great ideas –

Frankly, I make Ty Pennington look like a napping cat on a sunny warm afternoon……. I out hyper and ADD him, no contest. You think he’s wild and crazy and zany and all over the place? You should have heard the sleep center doctor yesterday describing me – HA – she said she was so confused and almost dizzy after meeting me the first time it took her a while to settle down. I laughed as I listened to her description and impression of me and replied “I guess i have ADHD huh? The look on her face was priceless.

Anyway, back on topic. Some times I consider myself VERY successful! Other times, I KNOW what’s trapped inside me, I KNOW my own abilities, what I could or could not do (with no ADD) and that’s when I get irate – as I KNOW my potential, and feel trapped. I feel like the next leader of a large country, or the next brilliant CEO who takes a huge company to the top, or a great scientist who solves the world’s energy problems with a simple solution, etc. – but all that is trapped…… and I get very frustrated and angry because I’m chained down, locked up, unable to speak or convey all that. Then another day, I look around me, see the house, my shop, my stuff, the cats, my son – and think, hey, I’m really pretty successful………. then some of the “if only……..” sneaks back in…….

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