Re: Two weird things my brain does…

[Carrie]

I always have one part of a song stuck in my head. I always get stuck on thoughts too. One time I listened to the same song two hours a day, for 2 weeks straight. I do that often. Or I think about the same thing over and over and over. Like a situation, or person I met in a situation. It plays on repeat. I play songs on repeat too. Drives my husband nuts hahaha

I do have an active imagination…. I found it was worse when watching horror movies or listening to certain songs. I used to watch a lot of horror movies until I realized how paranoid I got… I still am a paranoid person, but now I have my husband to reassure me things are ok and not everyone is watching me and why would a satellite pin point me out of everyone else in the world. hahahaha Though I still think this one person who works at a store here stalks me! Every time im in there he follows me around! Maybe he thinks im going to steal something I DONT KNOW! But I just stick close to my husband and he just tell me im paranoid hahaha

I used to have dreams and nightmares every night all night since I was a kid. I could remember them so vividly as well. I still remember some reoccurring ones ive had since a child. I also had almost my own little world where a lot of my dreams took place. There was always this pond about 10 feet long and 6 foot wide that was muddy in colour, but super warm water and lots of frogs and toads! I LOVE frogs and toads. In my dreams my dad would often take me there. He would be fishing while I would play in the water hoping to catch a toad. There was also this old dark house. It was always night there with big black thorny vines up the side. My class would always take field trips there. In one of those dreams I was shot. That was scary. Everything went black and I could hear my heart beat slower and slower until it stopped. Then I woke up. Even though they seem like dark places they brought me comfort. Ive had many dreams in those places. Same with a weird dark city. Made me feel good inside though *shrugs* I also used to dream about my school. It was always night and there were always wolves in the back forest. That one occurred a lot. I would wake myself up after running from them. oh oh!! One other reoccurring night mare was a possessed cat trying to hurt me. Its eyes were so big and black and it would constantly jump at my face. I would push it away not wanting to hurt the poor thing but it wouldnt leave me alone. I would try to kill it, but it would never die and I felt sooooooooo bad for trying to hurt this cat. But all this stopped when I got pregnant. Now its maybe once a month I have a night or two of complete whacked out night mares. Not your typical being chased nightmare either. Mine are a very horrific, gory, psychotic horror movie type night mare. Always lots of gore. Blood and guts. Im used to them by now. I just wake myself up, go back to sleep and hope not to enter the same dream. Those nights suck only because Im having to wake myself up all the time. Last month however one was quite bad. I dont remember what it was. I just remember it being gory and making me feel so horrible. I would wake myself up and fall back into the same nightmare. Bleh. Now I wake up, tell husband ive had a bad dream and he cuddles me. Makes me feel a bit better.

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