Re: Utterly sick of being this way

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I agree with tiddler (and the others). Therapy can make you feel worse to start with, as saying out loud how you did not fit in (and more!) and felt as though you were deliberately self-sabotaging for years can make you feel pretty desperate. And I have had to accept anxiety meds to deal with that, which is frustrating, because the associated tiredness and edge off the only thing that drives my focus plays havoc with my progress (postgrad studies, what was I thinking!?). But somewhere the sense of humour can come back to be helpful, not just as a defence (and because you are naturally witty which can be a blessing and a curse!) – my dad died young, sadly, but I can recognise things about him that now make sense – always laughing at his own jokes because “I didn’t know I was going to say that”. But I’d still rather be me than most other people, and I am glad that even though I am over 50 I finally have an explanation for my oddness.

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