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[blackdog]

@mmccull

Having a new born to care for is enough to throw anybody off track. But hopefully the joy outweighs the frustration. 🙂

I am also not working at the moment. I decided to take some time off and get things done around the house. And after nearly 6 months I haven’t gotten any of those things done.

Making a list, prioritizing it, and setting timers all work for me too. But only to a point. I haven’t been able to do it at all lately. I make the lists but then forget them entirely or end up shifting my focus to something else. Which is probably mostly because I have too many things that I really just do not want to do right now. They have to be done but I really wish someone else would do them.

I over think everything. And I spend so much time making elaborate plans to do something that I never actually get it done. Especially around holidays and with bigger projects like redecorating the house. I will have a vision in my head of how perfect everything will be and then get so frustrated that it doesn’t turn out that way, usually because I sat around thinking about doing it until it was too late to actually do it. And the more I think, the bigger and more elaborate the plan gets. 

And now I am beginning to understand why I do this. I am trying not to be too hard on myself, to give myself the time to adjust to my new discoveries about my ADHD and to get my medication adjusted and find what works for me. But beating myself up is an old habit and a hard one to break.

Thank you for the reminder. We all need to be reminded from time to time that it’s okay to get it wrong the first 100 times. The 101st time’s the charm. 😉

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