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[Evelyn]

M&Ms with Peanuts, thank you for the welcome and another way to look at sleeping on the couch. I don’t really sleep well there for my back, but in my bedroom the heat register blows on my face and it wakes me up. It might be a trade-off.

——-) I just realized that this morning by the way, I woke up in a near panic because I couldn’t breath, almost like a hot-flash.

I have found some valuable information too on this website. The most valuable thing I’ve found though is the people who are willing to listen and try to understand what I’m really saying, even if I’m not sure of what I’m saying.

Another thing that I seem to do is start thinking while I’m complaining, and sometimes what I come up with starts turning me positive again, because I remembered something I did that made me feel worthy of the air I was breathing.

My step-dad was difficult only because his care was constant, sometimes it seemed like 25/7, But the blessings were all those innocent things he did that made me laugh. Those moments of lucidity that only lasted an hour or so, but were really good conversations. The stories he couldn’t remember the details to so he made up stuff to fill in the blanks. And how every thing he looked at was new and wonderful. Except the neighbors tree across the street, He was always going to cut it down, it frustrated him so much he’d get all worked up. The tree is near the end of it’s life and barely has leaves on it. But Jean, the neighbor across the street said that her, and her husband found the tree growing in the backyard so they moved it, together, to the front yard. It was one of her fondest memories. So I never told her how Leo felt about the tree. When I told him, he would calm down. but then ten minutes later he’d start all over again about the tree.

Ok gotta come to the present here.

Now I just gotta do well in my life!!

My sister was living here to help me with paying the bills and other stuff. But she never had the money to help. felt she was entitled to whatever money was left after expenses. In the 3 years I took care of Leo nobody ever offered to help. Until the end, where “if there was one” the big reward would be. But what I did enjoy was having my sister here, now she is moving out and my heart is breaking. It’s not like she was here that much, but I knew at some point she would show up. She is moving in with her boyfriend.

Part of me is glad, because I will be able to rearrange the house the way I want to. But I spent so many years alone that it just hurts. I really didn’t expect to feel this way. I just don’t understand it.

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