Reply To: Diagnosed 9 mos ago, still in denial, scared about meds, studying problems… :(

[Anonymous]

I’ll start by saying that I tried to read everything… really I did. This is already sounding identical to my Lit class. Ok, I read most of the OP’s first few posts, and I must say that your case sounds very very similar to my own.

…aside from the age difference.

If I had to guess, you probably experience a lot more things in common with a ton of people here.

-Denial about your diagnosis. I know debate whether it’s just laziness that I can’t seem to overcome.

-Motivation is a 180 from where it should be, I can study camera’s, lenses, and photo editing software for hours… without blinking. When it comes to studying Math(which makes logical sense to me naturally) I can’t keep myself on task for even 15 minutes.

-Reading a book, yeah… that… one sentence will cause me to think of complex relations to anything… then the next does the same… again and again, until my eyes are simply strolling along each line of ink and my brain seems to completely disregard the existence of words on the page. Two pages later, I have to backtrack and start over. Needless to say, American Lit isn’t looking so hot.

-(May be my own issue) I neglect to communicate with people for loonng periods of time. As of now, it’s almost been a week, and until typing this, I haven’t even thought of calling my own mother. Not that I don’t want to, the thought just never takes enough root to cause an action.

-Washing dishes is only out of necessity… you have no more bowls or cups to substitute for the one you have neglected to wash. …or you smell them. (Gross, but true.)

-Same story with clothes… and the clean ones go on the floor, not far from where the dirty ones are.

-I have four bonsai trees… have I watered them? …no.

-I have a few credit cards… I avoid debt, so, how do I only have one card with no balance?

-If I don’t take my medicine, dear God I am more clumsy than people I poke fun at for being clumsy.

-I start way way way too many things that are amazing at first, but generally never get finished.

-I buy things that cost too much and are completely unnecessary for an independent college student. ($3K guitar, $2K camera, $2k in lenses, $2k computers, $JEEP, and who knows what I talk myself out of buying.)  NOTE: I can barely use any of those items to a degree that would justify even borrowing one.

-My hobbies change almost monthly, and whatever they are that month, It. Is. My. Life. haha. (Hence the overspending)

-I am also scared of my medicine.

-I do things impulsively that I look at later and say “What the hell were you thinking!?” Like jumping off of a cliff into the pacific with some navy seals. They knew what they were doing… I didn’t and it was about 50 degrees. yeah… stupid.. and I hit the water hard enough to pop my shoulder out of place. I love adventure, but holy cow… calm down Jungle Recon.

 

…Now, I’ve forgotten the point that I planned to make. Just know, that I am TotallyConfused by TotallyADD’s new website, and I am trying to force myself to stay away from freaking Call of Duty for the evening. (Stayed away from video games for almost 10 years because I get entirely too fixated and sucked into the imaginary world that changes in its entirety when you simply load another game.)

Ohh… Engineering… I am also a Mechanical Engineering major. Aerospace is essentially the same degree, with more of a focus in wing, air/fluid dynamics… as far as I have been told. This coming fall will start my Physics and Calc classes. They were postponed for many reasons, but most recently, I was bright enough to take MTH 115s… the “s” standing for superior student, and the class being an online combination of 112 and 113 Precals. Sadly, I was trolling through (Usually all on the two days before assignments were due.) nearly 40-60 sections of precal each week. So on top of working, and taking two histories and a lit class, I decided to “speed” up my entrance into calculus. Yeah, that didn’t work out.

Ramble ramble ramble… I plan to finish reading this discussion now. haha.

 

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