Reply To: My Starting Point : A Loss of Control

[blackdog]

@AllAboutControl…..

Phew! I actually made it through all of that. (With just a little skimming. )

First, welcome to the forums. 🙂 Long posts are pretty normal for a lot of us.  And you did a good job of breaking yours down and making it easier to read for people who have trouble concentrating. The error messages you got were probably because you tried to post too many times, too close together.  It makes you look like a spammer to the system. Its okay to put everything in one long post. As far as I know there is no word limit.

A few things that stood out in your story:

“The one thing that I still wonder as to whether or not it was ADD-related was my tendency to obsess over hobbies”

The answer is yes, it is absolutely related to ADD. We can focus on anything that is interesting. And as long as it is more interesting than anything else, keep focusing on it. There is also a sort of feed back loop that happens in our brains that might have something to do with it. We have a tendency to obsess and go over things and go over it over and over again in our heads. It keeps me awake some nights.

“…where others excelled in clinical practice and had to put the effort in academically, I was the opposite.”

“I put all of my energy into passing, but I was running out; eventually my focus became just keeping myself afloat.”

This is also very typical with ADD, and I had a similar experience with post secondary education. Started out fantastic, passed everything with flying colours, made the dean’s list. Then second term, started to struggle a little. Work placements, complete failure. I expended every bit of energy I had trying to keep up. Eventually the lack of sleep and food made me sick, which made me fall further behind, which meant that I had to work even harder, which made me sick again…..I remember actually doing a face plant in my mashed potatoes one night.  When I came to I just went and crawled into bed. I was so exhausted I don’t even have the energy to eat.

My experience with every job I have had has been very similar. I have no problem at all understanding anything. Doing it is an entirely different thing.

And finally:

“geek scene” and “sports club”….should not appear in the same paragraph. 😉

 

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