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You’re right on point again. I’m not always good with self awareness stuff. I think that’s one of the reasons I love the TADD forums so much. Someone brings up some aspect of their character and then I’m like…”Oh Yeah I do that”.
I remember I was hanging out with a buddy of one of my good friend, so I only new them by association we had never really hung out before. Anyway I just opened up to this person(that I barely new) about a bunch of personal stuff and philosophy. I didn’t really think anything about it at the time. The next day I got a call from my really good friend and he asked me if everything was alright. I was like..”Yep…why would anything be wrong.” Apparently the person I regurgitated all my thoughts and feelings to had called my BFF and said something like “Man I was with seabassd last night and he really freaked me out, maybe you should check on him.” My BFF just laughed as I told him what the conversation was about. He knew me well. Actually he always got a kick out of things I did and said so this was just another amusing story for him.
Later on I began to go the total opposite direction and became afraid to say anything around people I don’t know well. That’s where I’m at now. Your post has reminded me that I need to have someone that I can vent my feelings to and feel safe. I’m reminded that I can’t bottle everything up. For me, I can get overwhelmed by emotions. If I bottle them and bottle them eventually their going to either lead to a depressed state or I’m going to experience a bit of an emotional melt-down. I’m also reminded that I can be a very ALL or NOTHING kind of person. You know either I have to be the life of the party, or a total recluse. Maybe somewhere in-between would be o.k.
Thanks for your post.
Oh yeah…Are you still off the meds(you mentioned this in an earlier post)? How are things going?
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