Reply To: When employers won’t, or can’t help

[Evelyn]

Sorry about the pity-party up there.

You are right, it’s going to cost them a lot of money. And it was a temp service that has a contract with a large corporation. I don’t mean to be cloak and dagger here but I don’t know how much I would be allowed say. I signed a lot of papers.

I really want a job that would embrace my creativity; I was a sign painter, and a graphic artist. Not formally trained well I was as a sign painter, but I did pretty good as far as the work went. But my problems with relationships kept me from being a good salesman. Plus I have an aversion to making people buy something they may not be able to afford. I have a list of projects that I’ve done that always makes people say “How come you’re not rich” or “You are so creative I’ll bet you could do anything”. Most of them don’t know how many mistakes I made, or how many meals I skipped just to do it. They think hyper-focus is something you can turn off for a minute, or a day, then go back and just pick-up where you left off. No if I stop the hyper-focus it’s gone. I might or might not be able to pick it back up. And I never know when the right time is to take a break from it. I am always afraid that I won’t be able to go back to the task. Sometimes I don’t know when the end is too.

I’m not too bad a writer either. My English teacher (in collage) said I should pursue an English major. But I’d be lucky to get one article a week. Can’t make much money that way. Although I think I would like to try. I did produce a magazine that was good I did all the copy, art and advertising. My sister helped with the sales. But she came down from Saginaw, she couldn’t stay and help me get the second issue out. I really thought I had something there. Even though it was a lot of work.

Ok I’m rambling Thank you again for listening and for giving me words of encouragement. I really appreciate it.

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