Re: Bi-Polar II and not ADHD?

[Anonymous]

I am a mess too, My problems are more compulsion issues, I am a spender and a liar. I try so hard not to lie it is like my logic takes a back seat and I have no control. I have been in some REALLY dark places latley and am just hanging on by a thread. My husband is on Effxor for anexity issues and I wish he could whine off it but it seems that just as he is almost ready to get off something in our lives is messed up again. I have a daughter and I swear that she really is the only thing I hold on too, and it is exhusting to hold it to gether, I have been trying to do it for nearly 20 years by myself with no medication, when I was 18 they said I had ADD but also that I was Passive suicidal, NO DUH! it is REALLY hard not to be sucidial when you have such disguse with yourself. they put me on Prozac…. that was the wrong stuff if anything it made me worse! and then the tried Ritalin but I just felt numb tired. so I decided that I could do it on my own and for a while I did…. but I didn’t do it for long. I need help I need it now, I am holding on and I will hold on because I know deep down I am a good person and I am sure that if you dig down deep enough you will see that you are a good person, you’ve just been deal a crappy hand, but you can still play these cards, trust me you can play these card and still come out a winner!!

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