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Plop…. I also had an AH HA! moment and since doing research, like you, I went to see my dr. I have been taking Ritalin for about 3 weeks now and it has been like the door finally flew open. My thought process is more focused and linear, the noise in my head is calmer, I don’t second guess myself nearly as much, I’m more confident, I get up and out more and don’t stumble on my words in conversation, and the grocery store thing! why was i the ONLY one in line who was not highly irritated and if someone had coupons or was writing a check, for god sake, I’m outta there! Now I don’t *sigh* loudly and make a show of rolling my eyes, etc. when having to wait, big step!
Meds aren’t a cure-all and I do need to take advantage of my focused state to develop good habits, but it has given me the boost I needed.
As far as relationships, My ADD ruined my marriage I’m certain of it. If I could do it all again……… hindsight. I am single now, but my daughter has noticed a difference in me and as a result, she is trying harder in all things and our communication has VASTLY improved.
I hate to advocate any specific treatment, but if I were in your position and as you seem willing to try medication to “see what life on that side of the coin is like,” I’d say go for it. I mean, hey, stepping on glass? Thats dangerous! I don’t know what the UKs health care system is like, but if Mental or Behavioral health is not covered under the state system, I’d do it before you leave Canada. It might not be as recognized in the medical community over there and it is becomming more accepted and treated here (USA and Canada). It may take some time though to be diagnosed and adjusting the meds etc. Everyone reacts differently.
What better way to start fresh, in a new home, country, relationship, etc. I just KNOW that my next relationship will have a MUCH better chance of surviving now that all the junk in my head has quieted down. It hasn’t changed the essence of who I am at all, but has allowed me to more freely access and develop my positive traits. Forward Ho and no more constantly looking backwards.
Good luck and keep us posted!
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