Re: Pshychoanalysis anyone?

[Anonymous]

Today is not a good day! And to top it all off, I have already written a post for here, but deleted it, so my mood is even worse than it was before.

I am feeling torn between the “believers” and the “non believers” right now. Is psychoanalysis the right thing for me, or is the “medical model” the way to go. Yesterday’s appointment left me feeling ridden with guilt, anger, sadness, frustration, and impotence. If I am to believe the psychoanalytic model, then my relatively normal upbringing, with the usual childhood frustrations and angers, have caused my ADHD type symptoms and my anxieties. And if that’s the case, then I am also subscribing to the fact that my daughter’s anxiety and my son’s ADHD are a product of our parenting, which makes me feel like the lowest of the low.

I have barely been able to function since the appointment, and the anxiety over it (both before and after) has flared up my RLS to the degree that I have had to increase my medications to keep it under control enough to allow me to sleep. I feel constantly on the verge of tears, and I am wondering if I would have been better off not seeking a diagnosis after all. I have not told any close friends about my issues, so I don’t even have a shoulder to cry on. You guys here are the only support I have, and even then, I feel like an imposter, as I don’t even have an ADHD diagnosis, and might never get one at the rate things are going.

I guess the light at the end of the tunnel is that I have got an appointment with an ADHD specialist, BUT it’s not until March. That feels like a very long time to wait right now.

Sorry for my rant. I just really needed to get things off my chest, or I’ll self-destruct.

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