I think I need to explain my situation more fully. Reading back, I didn’t really give all the important details.
In response to bi-polar, I have to be honest and say I have always thought I might have it but always forget about it, so thanks for reminding me. Although if I do it’s not a huge problem for me. There are times when I can be depressed, for no reason, to the point of not wanting to move or do anything for up to a week (I actually just got out of a week long stint this morning) but that doesn’t happen all the time, and when it happens I just soldier on through it because I know I’ll be happy in a few days. The problem is when I get depressed for a reason that I know can be easily controlled by most people whereas I can’t. I know the differences between the types of depression I get. When I wrote my first post I was depressed over the reasons I mentioned.
As for my passion, well, I’m a musician. I’m at uni studying music. I love the subject matter and all my friends are either musicians or artists (I’m also an artist). I also live with musicians. I’m exactly where I want to be, in fact, I chose my uni when I was 15 and I’m here. The problem here is that I got to where I am without putting the effort in that I wanted to. I’ve got here by doing far less than I’ve set out to do, it almost seems like I got here by fluke. The thing is that I’m at a point in my life where that is no longer good enough. I have to put every last bit of effort in that I can, to be what I without a doubt want to be. But I can’t. The career I desperately want is as good as gone unless I get solid help soon. I’m working on it though.
Ohh there’s one last point I need to make. I haven’t finished a song in my life. I’ve started hundreds and have enjoyed writing them while I’ve being doing them but then just stopped in the middle.
Oh and I would just like to say thanks for reading my post and taking the time to reply. It’s comforting that there are people here that are so willing to help. Cheers! 