Reply To: Annual review and planning the year ahead, 2012 A year in the zoo

[Robbo]

About 15 months, not a very thorough one. But I’m deep into the solution. I’m going back for some more research into my cranial apparatus. I’m gonna try at least. It’s really hard to get time with a psychiatrist for folks medical/medcare. I’ll need some endurance. And encouragement. I’ll get it here too. Cool huh?.

Plain old self restraint is really high on my list of tricks to pull off this year. I haven’t been all that tricky lately, huh? Don’t answer that…

I had a friend who was diagnosed with rapid cycling bipolar disorder. Got really pissed off at me when I said “I sometimes have those symptoms”. This winter has been especially difficult for me. Extreme stress due to a lot of rejection at church, and just in general socially. I don’t blame God, Christians, or Jesus for that. It’s just human nature to reject people we don’t understand or relate to. I’m just as guilty, and know I need to give myself a break. So I’m giving the people in my life a break too. My physical health has been absolutely horrible the last few months. This is a very empathetic place, so I try not to talk about the frailties of my human body etc. It really hurts when people we care about suffer. Why would I wan to make that pain happen?.

I’m making it to my doctors appointments on time though. Telling the whole truth, etc. We only get back what we put in for the most part. It’s also true that I have experienced a vast amount of grace and about an extra gazzilian million chances at having a decent life.

Taking my time. That’s what I’ll do this year. It’s mine after all.

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