Re: Emotional Torment Over Seeking a Real Diagnosis

[munchkin]

Thanks so much Jenetically – what I really needed to think about was the whole blabber thing. I have managed to research doctors and have an appointment for tomorrow – and haven’t bugged ANYONE about it (except you 😆 ) Seriously – I can think of at least 3-4 interactions I’ve had in the last couple days where I normally would have spilled my guts all over people, but I made a conscious decision not to do that. So, now I have an appointment tomorrow – and I can picture how it would normally be – I would have bugged everyone around me, I would have been going over and over in my mind about what I said to them and how inappropriate it was to do that, and would be a nervous wreck. Now I just feel anticipation, slightly emotional, but generally having a decent evening, doing my normal routine. I think my husband overheard me making the appt, but I did go in another room behind closed doors to do it. He hasn’t said a thing, and neither have I, and it’s all kosher. It’s like, I’ve done the same pattern so many times, I don’t even see it anymore. I think I even blame other people for not being understanding or supportive, when really the drama was just a bit self created. I feel better right now because I don’t need their support because I’m OK. Wish me luck 🙄

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