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[foxglove]

Hello,

I’m Foxglove – 39, female from the South West of England

I’ve been researching the fact that I could possibly have ADHD after yet another relationship breakdown, where he actually took me to one side afterwards and calmly suggested that I should look into ADHD as I seemed a lot like a friend of his who receieved a diagnosis as an adult.

At first I was really upset and offended, but as I started to look at some online tests and stuff, it really sounded a lot like me. I wouldn’t say I have the fidgettiness or hperactive element, but I definitely used to be incapable of keeping still. I used to party a lot, work hard (but change jobs and houses every 6 months or so) I’ve recently calmed down on that front, but I have a feeling this is to do with depression (undiagnosed also) I definitely struggle incredibly with procrastination, disorder, memory, chaotic house which I can’t keep clean, exhaustion, inability to cope with work (I’m self-employed but really failing at it, losing things. I just can’t keep on top of life (I can’t even get to the middle of life). I only have a place to live because my nan died and my mum is letting me live rent-free in the little cottage she had (my mum wants me to pay rent, but I can’t).

Oh, I’m also very impulsive (e.g. I married my yoga teacher when I was 3 months in India! That didn’t work out either…) and sometimes take risks

I can’t really remember how I was as a child. I wasn’t overly disruptive, but I know I never wanted to be in the house and I always wanted to be doing exciting adrenaline-type things. My intelligence mostly got me through school under the radar even though I struggled to ever do homework or revision. This all got harder as the subjects got bigger and you could no longer revise on the morning of the exam and still do really well. I delayed doing a degree because I knew I wouldn’t go to classes or revise. Eventually at 25 I did do one, but the dissertaion nearly killed me, as I tried to write the whole thing in a couple of days and I was late handing it in and had to bribe the receptionists with wine and chocolate to give me another half an hour to get in all in binders. I made a promise to myself I’d never do another degree again.

I’ve been bankrupt, and never had any money. But intelligence-wise I could probably do any job I put my mind to (as long as it didn’t need much memory :s)

I should probably go and ask for an assessment? But I’m guessing that’s hard with the NHS.

Thanks for listening, and sorry for going on a bit 🙂

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