Re: Anyone taking Modafinil? (Provigil)

[Anonymous]

I’d always felt something was different about me, but was never sure quite what it was that set me apart from the norm.

Anyway, cut to a year and 10 months ago. I was browsing the web and came across a symptom list for adult ADHD. Mind blown, this was me. I’m no hypochondriac, I knew what the symptoms were for everything from bipolar to tourettes. I had none of them, but I was sure that I had ADD.

So I visited my GP and got palmed off a couple of times. One tried to prescribe me antidepressants. I eventually got a referal to a specialist adult ADHD clinic here in Bristol, UK.

Excited…but…a year long waiting list?

That was a long time to wait when you’re fearful that you’re going to lose another job, another relationship and spiral even deeper into debt. So I began reading (hyperfocussing) on ADHD, treatment options, med’s etc.

Modafinil popped up. It’s sometimes called a smartdrug, as is Ritalin. But Modafinil isn’t as heavily controlled as Ritalin. You can get this stuff online. So I did.

The first day I took it (200mg in the morning) I had my most productive day EVER at work. I do office based computer and paper stuff. It took the fun out of me a bit in the first few days. I was all work, work, work. But as time went by I settled. I was no longer superman, completing huge amounts of work in a day, but I could focus on tasks and keep track of things.

My mood improved and social interactions seemed to flow, where I used to stumble through, blurt things out and scare people off in the past.

However, the good times only lasted around 3 months before a tolerance built up leaving the drug almost entirely uselss to me. I still take it on occasions, after i’ve had a long enough break to reduce some of the tolerance. But the magic is lost.

I have my diagnosis now, I was right all along, I am ADD. The day after tomorrow i’ve got my second psych appointment and i’m desperately hoping to get a prescription for Ritalin. Because that’s basically what i’ve been waiting for for over a year and a half.

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