Re: Do I have it?

[Anonymous]

i haven’t been diagnosed yet. I want to go, but I am also very scared, what happens if i go and they tell me i don’t have it, would that mean I am actually lazy? kinda seems on one hand an irrational fear cuz i definately have symptoms 9/9 on innatentiveness and I’m noticing more resltlessness by paying more attention to myself, i fidget a lot. (i used to make things out of office supplies too when i worked in that environment, just like Bill’s ADDventures). My brother was diagnosed with ADHD in the early 90’s, and looking back on my report cards it looks as though i should have too. Self esteem plays a big part in my thinking, i’ve been really hard on myself for years about not finishing tidying and cleaning.

Despite not diagnosed yet, I’ve been trying the tips and tricks to get things done, my husband says” just try, just do it”. if only he knew how hard i try to just do it. I really struggle with dishes, i look at the pile and i just get frazzled to i procrastinate, and when i do, do them, i have to wash little bits at a time, i for example, wash the cups and throw the cuttlery in the water, then i go and bake banana bread, then i wash the bowls and plates, then I’ll go play with my cats, and before i know, I’ve only done half the dishes, made a bigger mess with baking and end up being really frustrated with myself, and feeling really down in the end that i couldn’t get anything cleaned.

As you can see I have a lot going around in my mind, thoughts all just bouncing around in my head.

any help?

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