Re: Food/Sex/Excercise to self medicate

[Anonymous]

Hey everyone. Why does all of this sound so familiar? (a purely rhetorical question). I used and abused drugs and alcohol from my early teens until my early adult years. All in an effort to quell the dragon inside my head. When I was 19 I began training in Karate and for me it was better than any drug. The extreme physical exhaustion coupled with the mental toughness required resonated within me and helped me become, for lack of a better word “better”. I realize this is not for everyone but that is what i did to stop my self destructive behaviour.

Growing up with this demon, as you all can relate, is as debilitating as any other disease. Although I hesitate in saying that “I have this”, because I didn’t ask for it and I don’t want it therefore I don’t have it. (This is just a positive affirmation of mine.) Like many of us I did poorly in school despite the fact that I am very smart and creative. I even had teachers who told me I was stupid and was “the village idiot”. These things do not help a young persons self-image. However, I was smart enough to realize that I was better than all those things people said to me and about me.

As Rick mentioned earlier: look for the patterns. Examine them and learn from them.

I have never had medication prescribed to me to control my dragon because I simply do not believe in meds. But that is just me. If something works, then it works.

AliD, keep working at it. It is possible to tame the dragon.

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