You’re not alone, especially here. I think you should keep trying to find a doctor who is a good fit. In four years I went through probably 8 therapists and quit therapy several times. Now I have the most wonderful therapist. I can’t wait to see her each week.
I’m on my second psychiatrist in the same period of time and seriously thinking of changing. He has put me on so many drugs and combinations of drugs with little result. Ironically though I was being treated for depression, one of the drugs I’m on that helps is Ritalin (prescribed for the depression, not ADD).
It will get better.
Peace to you.