I try to see things in a good way but how can I? Everything I ever wanted to do has made me lose faith in myself. It’s not so much about letting others down but about how much I have let myself down. In time I started to believe people who said I was “incapable” or “unable”.
I tried to prove myself and others wrong many times only to fail again.
Every failure takes me further and further away from people and myself. Every relationship I lose or damage displaces me into the realm of loneliness even more.
Having recently been diagnosed I am awaiting treatment. I hope the quality life improves.