Re: Mindfulness

[Tiddler]

Thanks again.

I think what my doc meant was that it’s hard to get diagnosed here, and I can see why. The doc has, through no fault of her own, sent me to 2 different people who can’t help and I have had trouble finding out who I need to speak to.

Here, there aren’t many people who have caught on to this being a real issue. It was actually my GP that thought that was what was wrong with me but even then she didn’t know who to send me to. Even the local NHS support for children with ADHD couldn’t recommend anyone to go to with suspected adult ADHD, not because they don’t believe in it, but because there doesn’t seem to be much of a service here.

I’m going to be going a couple of hours away and paying privately, hopefully next week or the week after (just waiting for confirmation) and that’s fine, but it’s close enough to some of the riots that I don’t know what’s going to happen (but that’s an irrelevant tangent though oddly surreal for a generally peaceful country. If you’ve seen the world news you’ll probably know what I mean)

So, basically, I’ve been searching for answers since I was in primary school (and I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t get off the bus without leaving my school bag on it) and now I think I know I’m just desperate to ‘get better’.

I have always felt that if I ‘just tried harder I could do it’. I know this is because that’s what I’ve been told all my life. Oddly, I did this with my asthma medication when I was first diagnosed when it became difficult to manage about 10 years ago – if I ‘just tried harder I’d be able to breathe on my own’

So, I’m trying to ‘try harder’ by learning mindfulness and I’m just not sure I’m going about it the right way.

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