Ah! The willingness….I suppose that means I have to have the willingness to be known. Ack! That’s scary.
Good point on the fact that there are others who can help and support. I need to reach out more to friends.
I do know what I want to be, and in many respects I already am that (a writer), I’m just not currently being paid to write. 
I’m being paid to deliver fried foods to people’s table at their beckoning. And ranch dressing. Vats and vats of ranch dressing. 