Day 4 
. Still feeling pretty mellow and not needing any propanolol. I am a little concerned that I feel too mellow. I do not want to lose my personality! Silliness and non-sequitor is part of who I am. Maybe I am having a little trouble adjusting to my more quiet mind? However, the generalized anxiety brain noise which just gave me stress and solved nothing can leave lol. I am just reflecting today. I am also working hard on overhauling my organization. I have thought about things and done certain things a certain way for years now. I am also reflecting on adulthood. I am 27 with a very professional career, but I live and function as I did as an undergraduate… feeling very reflective… Part of being medicated like this is letting go.
I am taking 50mg. I was a bit confused on why she gave me 50 at the start, specially considering that my only previous stimulant experience was 10mg Methyln ER twice a day.. 3 days a week for a month. She told me that the dosing on Vyvance was really odd. I did not have time to ask her what she meant about that, but I am probably going to do some research about this.
I am interested in continuing this thread as well
(me attempting to understand the neuropharmacology differences of stimulants. I take no responsibility for its accuracy!!!)
I have been doing some research on the difference mechanisms between the methlyphenidates, pure amphetamine (dex), and mixed ampethatamines (adderal). For me, I think part of the difference is the norepinephrine/dopamine ratio. I never ever thought I could have ADD due to my horrible reactions to other stimulants such as caffeine and decongestants. Caffeine and decongestants are more norephinephrine focused. In addition, it requires much more of these substances for the dopamine enhancement. I am an anxious person who probably has more norepinephrine than I need outside of my frontal lob (ADD dysfunction). It gets complicated as norepinephrine can turn on dopamine in the frontal lobe. (this is why Strattera works and it not addictive). Dextroamphetamine still has norephinephrine actions, but perhaps less so than other stimulants? Dopamine is in itself still a nervous system stimulant. So I just confuse myself, but I still think there is something significant about the norep/dop ratio combined with our unique brain chemisty. Some people may need the extra norephinephrine due to different chemistry.
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