Reply To: 29 yrs old – my story

[lindsey3]

Hi runningman, I’m sorry that you are in a place of great stress, with new work challenges just around the corner. Reading your post the thing that strikes me the most is your focus on the amount of self medication and prescribed medication that you and your partner have experienced over a number of years, and that you have experienced a terrifying psychosis. You say that other people think that you have a substance abuse pattern / history – but the important question is  – do you think you have a substance abuse problem?

Personally on a quieter level, I know that I drink huge amounts of strong fresh coffee each morning, take methylphenidate hydrochloride, smoke cigarettes all day and drink cold white wine in the evening – I am coming to terms at the moment with how much I medicate and stimulate myself just to get through the day. Something has to give! At 54 I’m only just ready to address this – only five months into diagnosis.

I urge you to find a talking therapy that works for you. Therapy  helps us to identify our own needs and difficulties, and a trusted therapist offers a place to be honest and is non judgemental – in time you will identify for yourself what you need to do to achieve what you want. You can achieve a sense of balance and empowerment through therapy that medication on its own can’t.

Try it! x

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