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I haven’t read your whole story yet, but I had to stop at the point where you said you were embarrassed to admit that you considered suicide.
You should not be embarrassed. Depression is a very serious and very real medical condition and thoughts of suicide are just part of the illness, not something you need to be embarrassed about. It doesnt mean you are weak or inferior in some way. I’m on the downward spiral myself right now and though I haven’t quite reached the “I want to die” level yet, I’m hovering right above it.
As for the college thing, don’t assume someone is smarter than you just because they have a degree of some sort.
It sounds like you made the classic ADHD mistake of taking on too much at one time. And when you reach the point where you’re overwhelmed, your ADHD starts to show, where it didn’t before because you were able to cope.
And I would definitely say your self esteem and confidence level is a little low if you are still not satisfied after all you have achieved. I would be happy if I could say I had done even a fraction of what you have done. In fact, I would really like to know how you did it. I can barely get my foot in the door to apply for ordinary, mundane jobs any trained monkey could do. And I usually don’t last long when I do get one.
Maybe I’m just not aiming high enough. 🙂
One more thing: If everything you read up until now about ADHD was about how it’s just an excuse to get drugs, you have definitely been visiting the wrong websites. Stay away from them. You’re in the right place now.