Thank you for your response. I was actually feeling embarrassed and wishing I had of waited instead of posting all that. Seeing your comment helped to make me feel better about it.
I know what you’re going through. I’ve been saying the same thing since before getting my official diagnosis. How did I lose so much time? It’s not fair that people half my age have done twice as much and I’m still spinning my wheels.
But the answer to my question, about how you can make up for things you did, or didn’t do, is : You can’t. All yo can do is pick up the pieces and move forward. I was looking at it all wrong. What I need to focus in is doing what I need to do to out the past behind me and be able to get on with my life. If it’s too late for something, then it’s too late. don’t waste time or energy on it.
It sounds like you’re off to a good start, reaching out and finding those resources. The gratitude journal is a good tool, if you can remember to keep one. I used to occasionally write out a list before going to bed of “What Was Good About Today”. I tried to always put down at least three things, even if it was just something like “it was sunny” or, on really bad days, “I’m still breathing”.
Another thing you might want to try is keeping a list of accomplishments. They don’t have to be big, just any little thing that you did right. Some of my recent accomplishments are:
*Made the bed
*Made lasagna for dinner
*Tried to fix shelves, gave up when it became frustrating and was taking too long
*Took down the Christmas decorations
That last one is unprecedented. I never get the Christmas decorations down before the end of January. (I actually left the tree up until June or July once.)
Like everything else, I don’t do this consistently, because I keep forgetting. But it helps to put you in the right frame of mind, looking at the things you did right instead of the things you did wrong. I counted the fact that I gave up trying to fix the shelves as an accomplishment because I have a problem with knowing when it’s time to quit. And I did fix those shelves a couple of days later, after I had some time to think about it and come up with a plan.
i am literally falling asleep now so I have to stop there. Thanks again for your response and good luck. 🙂REPORT ABUSE