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@Larynxa I don’t actually read books. Three chapters would probably be as far as I would get, and not necessarily in order. I would probably skim over the table of contents and pick out whatever looks the most interesting. I wish I did read more but it’s just so tiring and I lose interest or get frustrated.

But fortunately there are people like you who do read to pass the info on to those of us who are too lazy. 🙂

My therapist doesn’t seem to understand much about ADHD. But he is trying to figure out how to help me so he is going along with what I am telling him I want, even though he is still trying to come up with another explanation. Yesterday he mentioned that procrastination can also be caused by low self esteem. And he’s not wrong. But the question is, as he said, which came first, the chicken or the egg? Do I procrastinate because I have low self esteem or have low self esteem because I procrastinate?

That is where the conversation in my head started this morning. And then when I started branching out from there and one thing led to another, and another, and another, that’s when I started making  notes. I realized that he is focusing too much on that one thing and starting jotting down random details of my day-to-day life, like the process I go through to get ready for work:

Frogot to wash my clothes, put them in the wash, then sit up until they are done to put them in the dryer because if I don’t do it I will forget that I washed them and be searching all over for them in the morning and then realize they are in the machine and it’s too late to dry them. Alternatively write a really big note to DRY CLOTHES and leave it in front of my alarm clock, then write it again on my arm just in case, then go to bed and pray I read at least one of the notes as soon as I wake up.

Forget to read notes and/or lose track of time, frantically search for alternative clothes I could  wear, throw just the bare minimum of what I need in the dryer and pray that they dry in time, go and put hair up, brush teeth etc., find clothes still aren’t dry, call work to tell them I’ll be “just a few minutes late” when the reality is it will likely be at least 20 minutes because aside from waiting for my clothes to dry I still have to find my shoes, and my keys, and something to eat…..

And people wonder why I’m never on time.

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