Re: I Struggle Most… Fear

[Anonymous]

My fears are more social I would say. It is the fear of being ridiculed, made fun of, bullied, belittled, shot down….. the list goes on. Until I met my wife-to-be, I was terrified of females. I was afraid to touch them, in ANY sort of way. I had fringe friends, ones that where your friends, but never a hey, come on over…… no birthday parties, nothing….. I find it hard to feel that people love me. I know they do, but to see it and know it, I can not. (Or, I do not know what to look for with them loving me back)

Another thing that kinda fuels it is that I am a heart on my sleeve giver. I will passionately give to people till there is nothing left. Its apart of my nature. Instead of giving back, it feels like they keep, and give nothing back.

I want to get out, and enjoy life, but that desire is just a bit smaller than the fear wall that stands at the the door…..

I have to have something to eat, then pick up my fiencea from work.

Thanks,

Dave

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