Lol!! I am good at pretend – I pretend I am less disorganised than I really am, and that my current state is just a sign of having too much on my plate and will end when things settle down 
I think that the doc was very reasonable, but funnily enough, that makes things worse. I feel like I should give him a go, just because he has been fair in his treatment of me.
Haha, I passed art, but failed the art theory part pretty badly. I just could not keep track of the various styles/eras, though I could debate about them well in class when given two examples. It really confused my teacher, who saw good ability on one hand, but dismal failure on the other. I also failed library studies! I shocked the hell out of myself by passing uni level chemistry (where I always felt like I was behind) but failing genetics, which I quite enjoyed. Uni all boiled down to the exams and how I was on the day.
I suppose I am finding it hard to come to grips with “childhood issues” being the root cause of all my tensions/struggles/anxieties. I agree that I had friction with my mum when I was growing up, but I get along well with her now, and I find it hard to believe that the friction caused such dysfunction as I got older, especially as my anxieties feel like they have improved since I was a teen. The lack of a diagnosis sort of gets to me too. Psychoanalysts seem to not put labels on anything. Instead they look at a person and their issues and use “talk” to get to the root of things in order to bring about insight and change, without labelling anything. I think I would feel better if I could find more about the success of the analysis process. But I can’t seem to get much info on it. I do know that it is a form of therapy used in France to treat ADHD, rather than using stimulants, as they have a different view of ADHD there.
Oh well, I really must get to bed. I have limited time to sleep, and I am wasting it on the computer!!
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