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zsazsa, I can understand that. I think it’s a normal reaction to a huge situation, especially for children. But I don’t think that’s quite what’s describing. I love having interesting conversations with my friends. It makes me so frustrated when my head just doesn’t do anything and it’s embarrassing to have to admit that I have no idea what I was trying to say. I love my job. I work for a charity I feel passionate about and I want to get the work done well and on time. I’m TRYING. Really hard. But nothing is happening.
I still expect myself to be able to do it and it’s shocking to me how bad it’s got suddenly – and because of the diagnosis I am absolutely certain. But I don’t think I’ve given up and I don’t think I have a ‘you can’t do it so don’t bother’ attitude. I think I’ve always used panic as a method of coping. I panicked over everything all the time. I’ve been treated for depression and anxiety since my early teens. I don’t think I was depressed, as much as highly anxious and I think I was anxious because that’s what it took to get me moving.
The trouble is, now I’m not panicking about not being able to do stuff – because I don’t blame myself as you have noticed in the children – but I’m trying to light fires under myself to get the jobs done and I don’t know how. With help from a friend and a LOT of coffee, I feel like I coped for a couple of hours yesterday like I used to. Still distractable but getting it done with a boatload of effort.
I’m trying all sorts of other strategies, like giving myself false deadlines, the coffee, setting aside specific times to do specific jobs, writing instead of typing, doing it late at night when I feel ‘wired’ and can’t sleep, doing it when it’s quiet, doing it with music on…
None of it is working. I was excited about finding additional ways to help with this, but it turns out that I’ve accidentally lost the one successful strategy I already had – a heightened anxiety state. And there’s nothing successful in its place yet and I don’t know how to get the anxiety back just to get the job done!
does that make sense?
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