Thanks everyone,
I had an epiphany.
I have been mulling over what Bill asked [Could you describe how Taoism has helped?], and discussing things with my wife, when I realized I could not think of the name of the Taoist book, though I remember Lao Tzu “wrote” it. That led me to ask “where are my books?”. Then it struck me.
We have been in this house for nearly 2 years and I have been working on fixing it up, and have NOT READ ANY OF MY BOOKS. This would explain why I was doing reasonably well then suddenly imploding. I guess I forgot. I now have another Bill to thank for his guidance 😆(Bill W, being the other one).
We have been moving stuff about, clearing space to paint one bedroom whilst filling up another with boxes of books. My wife, Carolyn, thought she had seen my Tao books, but they were probably buried deep. No matter, we’ll find them at some point.
This morning I walked into the (now) storage room, and presto there they are on the desk. Tao Teh Ching, Hua Hu Ching, The second book of Tao, The art of war, The Tibetan book of the dead, Bible code 3, The Maya, and Back to Basics.
AND then, I’m sitting on the bed waiting for my coffee to go ping in the microwave, look up and notice one of the calenders on the wall which has in big letters “FOCUS”, and below that “Try to avoid looking forward or backward and try to keep looking upward”.
I wandered too far off of the Path, and the Universe guided my back to it. This kind of thing happens to me over and over again, and I still get goosebumps, think ‘WOW’, and shed tears of joy.
I want to write a piece about how and why I chose Taoist philosophy. It could get verbose, so best type it off-line first. It is funny that the Tau Teh Ching is 81 short verses, one for each year Tao Tzu spent in the womb, and my text is bound to be longer. 