coming out of hiding and finial'y seeking help after 15 years

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hi there my name is tim and i am 30

i was originial’y diagnosed with adhd when i was i think 3 or 4 years old .. i have been on every drug that was out there for adhd during the 80″s and 90’S . it was horrible .. im talking everything .. i finial’y said fuck it im not taking any more pills im done!!! and i was 13 -14 i flushed all my pills and removed myself from therapy .. it has been hard all these years trying to be ” normal” . i originally grew up in new zealand until i was 8 then i moved to america and i was in and out of schools i was shoved into the special edd program and basically i learnt nothing due to the un-awareness of how to deal with this issue i had. ( but i can play uno real good and learnt sign language ) i unfortunately all these years believed i could do this with out any help and i have suffered because of it .. i have issues spelling and its holding me back from chasing my dream of becoming a police officer . even though i have a batchlours degree in criminal justice. ITS SO FRUSTRATING…. well today i went to the V.A. to talk to my doctor about it and see whats out there to help me .. i am not into taking any medication due to my over medicated youth and i have a grasp on who to cope and use this adhd to my advantage or at least i think i am ….. but sometimes i wish i was normal …. well soon i will be hopefully getting some advice and ideas on how or whats out there to help me with this issue. or at least i hope they will be able to help me

anyway i just wanted to get this off my chest and see what else is out there via this thread….

any advice anyone has for dealing with this is well apreciated ..

i found this website by watching pbs and realizing wow all these years that i thought i was suppressing the issue i was actually not and that by suppressing it i was actually doing more harm than good AAAARRRRRRGGGGGG

WELL THATS IT FOR NOW !

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